Next weds a group of local blogger chicas and I are hitting up Ingrid B's Bohemia Room spoken word event; Cunnilinguistics, A night of erotic poetry... Only problem is, the only finished poem I have that's slightly erotic that I haven't destroyed or lost I read last time I was there. I'm going to have to actually write a new poem. It's been almost a year I think... But going through my old stuff on my dino desktop I found this poem, which I wrote in Miami, a little over a year ago... And decided to share. I was inspired my Billy Collin's poem of the same name. He is such a great poet... I wonder if I can get some erotic poetry inspiration there? No, best keep it safe and look through my Adrienne Rich ;)
The Best Cigarette
There are many that I miss
Having flicked my last one over a balcony
One dark night, a firefly disappearing in the trees.
The obvious ones, of course;
After an evening joint, the double indulgence
As one fades to ash, two light up
And lean back, the end of a long
At the end of a greasy breakfast
The day waiting to begin
Blue-grey haze curling and dancing from the ashtray;
Or in a hot tub, resting an elbow on the edge
Holding the damp filter until it burns out.
It’s a strange dichotomy, these moments
of flame and relief.
The most pure memories are mornings
When the next line keeps appearing
Through the tangle onto my computer screen,
The endless Miami sun.
Newly downloaded music in the background
With it’s own beautiful surprises and familiarities.
I would grab for the pack without looking
Away, lighting up as I read my own
Words as if they were a letter
To myself, written
And it would be the exhale of breath
Left hand raised to hold it
As I lean back in the chair and
Smile at my own truth.
Then I would be my own sunshine
All bright energy as I returned to work
My thoughts like beams of light
Little rays whispering,
The catalyst of soul growth
All the poems that brought me
Here, came from somewhere
That was the best cigarette.
Smiling at the monitor.
Every ounce of light withinShining on these words.